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Can't hold me down.

Have you ever felt like you're at a point where you've been defeated. Defeated in the sense that things are not going the way they should, and no matter how hard you work against the constant doubt and the hindering of the bad, you just can't seem to pull through? Well, that is the way I have been feeling lately. I'm the type of person who always sees the bad in situations. That is the pessimist in me. With having that trait, the negativity or doubt in a situation seems to come forth before I can truly see the good in it. With having a pessimistic nature, I also am a realist. I see things as they really are. In this world that we live in, sometimes the good out ways the bad. With all dreams and ambitions one has, how could you not. The strive for success is something that one should have. A hustlers spirit is what I call it. But when things start moving at a slow pace, that is when the defeat starts to crawl into that spirit and try to bring you down. No matter how much it tries to enter your life, you must not allow it to succeed. Whatever you go through, good or bad, you have to be able to fight for your way to the top. Fight in the sense that nothing can ever bring your spirits down. Ambition is the key.

New Prospective's.

The beginning is always the best part when dealing with a new prospective. Everything seems to be in sync and the feelings are mutual. This is what I call the courting faze. When going into a new situation, you always put your best foot forward. The necessary drama is almost non existent because the prospective is still trying to "get in good". There is of course the snickering of outside sources informing you of the pros and cons of the situation like clockwork, but everything is still copastetic. As a scorned individual, the pessimistic nature seems to always sit in the back of your head like a constant tick, telling you to wait for the downfall. When deciding to deal with a new prospective, you tend to always seek an individual who is not like the past. Sometimes you go out looking for an upgraded version, but end up with the same quality as the last. Maybe that person is not as you expect, but who are you to know for sure. Not every human being is necessarily the same, but it seems as if every individual of the same sex seems to sum up to being horrible and calculating. But one should always go into something with the hope that it is not going to turn out to be like the rest. There are in fact good and genuine individuals out there in the world. But if you are someone like myself, those individuals have not shown themselves and one can grow tired. So as you sit there contemplating a situation, you're almost telling yourself that it's not going to be a complete catastrophe. How can it be? Everything is grandeur! My only advice would be to go into something with your thinking cap on. As I've stated before, not every person is the same, but be smart about every situation you put yourself into when dealing with a new prospective. You never know what could happen, maybe that could be the one you can fall unconditionally and irrevocably in love with. Yea, there is sometimes when you don't necessarily want to put yourself out there with the fear or feelings not be reciprocated. That has to be the worst feeling! Being open and honest with your intentions is what one needs to always put out there. How can you expect someone to understand the way you are feeling if you are scared of the outcome. That is where your thinking cap comes into play. If you are in fear of mutual feelings, then maybe you shouldn't have put yourself in the said situation to begin with. Everyone wants to have a mature situation. Mature in the sense that you can be open and realistic about the outcome of things. In all, just be happy and involve yourself in situations where you are going to be happy. Maybe this one could be it, but until then do you. There is not harm in being alone.

These N*ggas Be Acting Up!

Let me just start this off by saying, N*ggas be acting up! For some reason unbeknownst to me, men have a problem with telling the truth. Now they're are women out there who also have a problem with telling the honest truth, but I'm not talking about them in this post. So anyways, the amount of lies or false accounts of situations that come out of the male mouth is at an alarming rate. It has always been a troubling thing to me because, I'm the type of person who feels as if the truth shall always set you free. I rather someone tell me the truth than lie to me and that lie hurts me, plus all the drama that comes along with it. You would think that men would learn that once your stories start to not add up, we as women are on it! Like I expressed in an earlier post, women can turn into an CIA Agent with the snap of a finger. Don't believe me, just think back to a situation you had with a female where your behind got caught...oh okay. But anyhow, fellas, let me just let you in on a little tip, we might appear to be clueless about what is going on, but we know what exactly is going on. Whether we put up with it or not is the real issue. Some women let these n*ggas cheat and act up and can be content with it just for the simple purpose of having a man. That is the dumbest sh*t ever, but to each its own. Now for the female who does not have time, we're not going to put up with it! Once a story starts to not add up, our spidey senses begin to tingle and we're on the investigation! To keep is funky, no man wants their woman to start snooping and acting in a jealous manner, but if you would simply try to contain your lies, and act correctly, I'm pretty sure things will be just great. They're are instances where you might be in a situation we're you are in the beginning of building something or "conversing". The rules still apply here! If you are truly intending on making something with the person, there is no need for false accounts what so ever. Now for those of you who are just sharing bodily fluids for the sole purpose of getting that "cashew", go head with your bad self, I ain't mad at you. But the act of being honest with that person makes things a lot easier and the beginning of problem never begins. We're all adults, we know what makes us tick personally and what we will not put up with. So with this post, fellas, just get it together with the lies, it's never okay to dishonest. 

Communication

Anyone who can hold a conversation with me and arouse my intellect gets an A in my book! Communication in every aspect of your life is a necessity. The type I am discussing is the lack of communication when it comes to dating. Lack of communication has got to be the most irritating thing to me when it comes to dealing with a new or current perspective in my life. Now when I say "prospective", I mean the man or woman to whom you are pursuing or are newly involved with. I've always said and also stressed the fact that without communication, there is nothing. The reason I feel this way is because I am the type of person who loses interest fast. You have to be able to intrigue me and be able to communicate with me and so on. For some reason, it seems as if once the "courting" faze slows down and you take things to the next level,some people at this stage start getting lazy and comfortable with the situation and forget what it takes to keep things at a momentum. Maybe I've been dealing with the wrong kind of people seeing as I'm writing about this, but this is such an important point and topic to me. But anyhow, let me dig a little deeper so y'all can clearly view my point. Communication is so much more than just than spoken words. It is physical and emotional as well. You have to be able to transfer your emotions and thoughts and also be able to absorb your prospective's thoughts and emotions. The art of listening is probably even more important than the art of talking. It can go a long way if you would sit down and listen to your prospective, instead of talking and voicing all of your opinions at once. Don't get me wrong; it is very important that you do voice your opinions. But you must listen to THEIR opinions as well, and take them into consideration. I feel doing this with your prospective is necessary if you want things to go any further or to stay content. Take for instance texting, we all do it, it's a quick and easy way to stay in communication with the people in your life. For example, if it is one thing that kind of ticks me off is when I text my prospective and I don't get a response in a "timely manner". I mean at least confirm that you saw the message. I also know that there are certain circumstances where you are not able to access your phone as well, but you have to show me some effort. I might sound crazy, but that ish irritates me. It almost feels like I'm being thrown shade. I don't have time! Something as simple as a text or phone call or a great conversation on a daily basis can really go a long way in my opinion. Personally,the lack of communication can show the lack of interest in me and I start questioning the situation which entails the loss interest. What is the point of putting yourself out there when the effort you are clearly showing and giving is not reciprocated back? But to each its own. What I view may not be understood or how you feel. But this is my point of view on this topic. 

Pachangas

So I told myself I would write posts every other day, but sometimes you just have to vent about some things, you feel me!? So anyways, it seems like I always get ideas about my posts from the b.s that I either see on Twitter or a situation that I have noticed. This specific post is going to be about these Pachangas out here in this world. If you are not familiar with that word, I suggest you get hip to it. A Pachanga is someone who is traitor or a friend who you are no longer friends with. It comes from the movie Carlito's Way staring Al Pacino. Fabolous also referenced the name and also the definition of the name in his song "Pachanga". "A thug changes, and loves changes, and best friends become strangers, Pachangas". Those kind of people need to to get it together. And for the people who allow these kind of people back into the mix of things, how can you befriend someone who has disrespected you on numerous occasions, or shown "traitor" like behavior? Maybe I'm a different kind of human being, but I believe once you have disrespected me or my loved ones, that is your one-way ticket on my Pachanga list! Some people say "You should forgive your enemies or the people you do not like", Yes, that is all fine and dandy and better said than done in most situations. But anyhow, the older I get, the more certain situations and people don't really faze me and I have learned to try and forgive my enemies or those I hate. But one thing is for certain, there will always be my opinion and dislike for Pachangas. I seriously cannot fathom being fake to people with Pachanga like behavior, I will never be able to. But hey what do I know. Again, this is my OWN opinion and to each it's own...

The story after the storm...

I thought I was going to loose my mind with no power in my house all those days! Yay, I'm back though, like I never left AKAYYY! Anyways, so little Ol' me was on Twitter today and happened to stubble upon some ignorant words some baboo...I mean young man had said about African women and I was actually offended! I NEVER get offended by the sh*t I see on Twitter.... *devilish smirk* Okay, okay, y'all know I always have to out my two cents into certain situations. But anyhow, those words that man was saying about African woman should have been alarming to me, but unfortunately it wasn't. For some reason these African men either living in the U.S or abroad have a sick infatuation with the slander of their own women. This epidemic is so crazy to me because you would think some African men would have the back of their women seeing as Akata (African American) men are always slandering black women. If I'm not mistaken, those same women that are so horrible and deserve nothing but the worse have the same African blood coursing in their veins as their own Mother, sisters, cousins, etc. Can you say those same vulgar words to their faces as well? A couple weeks ago I had posted on my Twitter how I do not want any men from East Africa. My post may have been seen as me generalizing all of the East African men, just as that man had done today with African women. Yes, it may seem hypocritical for me to be arguing with the words this man said, seeing as I did the same thing he did, but I would like to clarify my statement. I may go back and forth with my love/hate for East African men, but in all actuality, I do not slander those men. I may have my dislike for certain qualities that they contain, but how can I truly slander them when the men in my family are those said men as well. Judge me if you want, I'm probably not even going to care, but to each it's own like I always say. Back to the topic at hand. Some woman/women must have hurt that young man for him to be going off like that! I've always said that whatever you post to Twitter is your own opinion and no one else's opinion should matter because in fact it is YOUR Twitter. But for some reason, it has been the new thing to post slander or outlandish words to get attention for more followers or RT count. C'mon with all that man, it's never that serious. To me, Twitter is not real life until you bring real life situations into the mix that deals with my personal life, that is when I go off. Other than that, it's my little leisure time I use when I am bored. My little PSA I would like to address with this post would be the same as any post I create that has to deal with slander. Your opinions will always be null & void if you have ever dealt with the said topic you are slandering. You look stupid and dumb boo boo, and it's not cute. As always, you can take what I say as advice or with a grain of salt, but seriously, this epidemic of hating on your own people has got to end someday!