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Deceit, selfishness, doubt, pain, emotions, anger, frustration, scared, melancholy, exhaustion, bitterness, confusion, clouded judgment, the lows and the highs. Why do you feel so sad and at the same time relieved from the mockery you were being made of. The secretiveness, the subliminal messages, was it even worth the second trial? The deciphering of emotions to an emotion less soul. At the end of the day one is left to feel as if it was all a game. All the promises and whispers made to one another during moments of passion, moments of anger. The words that were said, were they really how you felt? Did we really mean them? The one sided feelings, the feeling of being alone, when in fact you're truly with another person. Now they're gone, more than you can feel. The feeling of being cold, life must go on. Different issues and inner demons battling in your mind. No one assumes anything is wrong due to the strong willed nature of your character. Only to be alone in a dark room feeling as if the twists and turns life is giving you is just for pretend. Life and all its spirals. We're just lucky that we still have these lives that we're so ungrateful for at times. Again, it all sums up to still dealing with the issue at hand. You assume if you lost yourself in love, it would be reciprocated back. True love can never really forsake you. A paralyzing fear of failing at it again, refusing to let go. Now as you sit there feeling as if you wasted time, so hurt, so angry; you still want it back. How can someone who sung the same feelings of love back to you just throw it all away? How can someone who said they loved you be so hurtful? How can they just utter such disgusting words about the one they promised to? The submissive trait that one carries in their soul somehow always seems to get hurt. You believe being dominant can scream crazy. Of coarse you were a good person, but no is is perfect. This time around, it's time to be selfish. Can't say I never loved you. My pride was all I had, but it was taken away and bruised along with the love I had for you....